I’m never the one who gets called first.
I’m never the best friend.
I’m never the one someone falls in love with.
I’m never the best at school.
I’m never the funniest person.
I’m never the most entertaining person at parties.
I’m never the one someone tells a story first.
I just exist. And I’m sick of it.
I’m going to distant myself away from my mom. That’s what she’s doing to me..She’s so caught up in her own fucking world she doesn’t even fucking notice. Not like she ever did but I don’t know she’s being even harder on me than before. All bc he fucking came back . LET HIM GO.
I don’t want to do anything.
I’m rarely going to talk to her now, only when I want to go somewhere.
I’m just rarely going to eat.
I’m rarely going to give out personal emotions to friends Ihardly talk to.
Bc one day I feel it, they’re not going to be there.
Itry to be the best daughter.
I don’t let her see meh when Icry.
I don’t let her know when I’m sad or depressed. Bc it isn’t easy to talk about plus she is very critical.
I make her believe that I’m mentally stable.
I don’t tell her things to stress her out.
I help her when she needs it.
I’ve been cleaning my room more often. I try to do things on my own so I don’t have to bother her/stress her out.
But no. I’m still such a bad daughter.
She just doesn’t fucking understand how hard this is. I’m like my sister in many ways but I’m growing up like she did, without my mom actually showing us she loves us.
My sister honestly, basically grew up without my mom bc my mom left her in Mexico for a while with our grandma. And that happened to my boyfriend when he was younger too. But my mom is here, she just its weird.
But I’m growing up alone.
Thanks. Oh whale. I’m already fucked up. So..
Itry to be the best daughter you can have .
But obviously I’m not good at that either ..
i work at a bakery and we got broken into but at least i got a few good puns from the customers
my favs were
- 'that was a pretty crumby thing to do'
- 'if youre looking for dough its a good place to rob'
- 'theyre gonna be toast when they get caught'